I had a big, long complaint written out about how things didn't go my way, didn't work out as I had planned, and how I was upset about it. But after writing the remainder of my post, I realized that I needed to just get over myself, stop being such a baby. So you don't get to here my rant. Instead, you get to hear about the awesome day I had with my son....
Other than that, I had a really nice afternoon. Corban and I just played all day long. We emptied both toy baskets we have, and played with just about every toy he owns. We slid on our legs on the slick ceramic tile and cracked up. We colored some. We spilt and picked up and counted, and spilt and picked up and counted, and... you get the idea.. cheerios onto the tile floor. He found it so amusing. :) We played upstairs and downstairs. We learned names of new animals (giraffe and elephant!). We looked out the window at the snow, and then watched in anticipation of Daddy coming home. I showed him how he could stand on his big boy bed and see our back yard out his window. He liked that alot. We played with his new nursery rhyme cd player, and danced to the songs. We arranged animal magnets on the dry erase board. We pretended the old toilet paper roll was a megaphone, and then a telescope. And of course, we drummed on every hard surface in the house. And now it's 6p.m., and my sweet pea is sleeping. He didn't get a nap this afternoon, as Daddy was home and that makes life far too exciting to sleep. So I'm letting him sleep for an hour (he was being a bear), and then I'll get him up, eat dinner, and put him back to bed by 8, hopefully.
I guess there's lessons learned today. Had I had my baby yesterday (or even today), I wouldn't have had this day with Corban. We wouldn't have spent hours playing and laughing together. I wouldn't have taught him what a zebra was. I wouldn't have the sweet memory of him hysterically laughing as the cheerio flew into the air because he pushed too hard with the spoon. I would've missed the hugs he had to give, him saying 'Mommy' so sweetly as I went to get him out of his crib. So, as ready as I am to have this baby, I'm really thankful that she stayed put for today. And man, am I thankful for my son. He is such a joy. I do, so very much, love being his mama. And I'm thankful that I was able to enjoy today, to set aside my anxiousness (for most of the day, anyway), and not miss these moments that I'll never get back. I'm thankful that I was here, really here, today for my sweet boy. He deserves a present Mama... Yes, I'm thankful for these moments that were not missed.
Aww, another wonderful post. I'm so glad you were able to find the joy in the day and in not having Baby Girl. It sounds like a fabulous day. Again, I wish I could have been there just to watch it. I just love being around little kids. They are the best. I'm glad you got this day of being just a mom to one and give him extra attention to get him through the days of not having you around and then sharing your attention.
ReplyDeleteThe way you write about your son and the intensity of your love for him makes me want my own kids....! I'm so far from being ready but you make it sound too wonderful to wait for.
ReplyDeleteoooh. Beautiful. It's good to hear you guys had this time :-) so cute.
ReplyDeleteSo important to have perspective! And, you will treasure these days down the road. Days before Corban was a big brother. I remember when our oldest was brought to the hospital to see daughter #2. I cried because she suddenly looked HUGE and so grown-up, when she seemed like such a baby the evening before.
ReplyDeleteI really want to be like you when I grow up! :)
ReplyDeleteYou sound like an incredible mother! What fun. It makes me so excited for this little baby to come!
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