If you would've asked me about dinner time yesterday, I might've been convinced I'd have a baby in my arms by now.
If you would've asked me at 4 a.m. this morning, I would've told you I would definitely have a baby in my arms by tonight.
If you would've spoken to me at 7 a.m. when my contractions had stopped and I was mad at the world, I might've bitten your head off.
If you would've asked me mid-day today, I probably would've said we'd at least be at the hospital by now.
But here I sit. At home. On my couch.
(If you're male, you may want to skip this paragraph. You've been warned.)
My appointment yesterday proved that my body is indeed preparing for birth. I was over 2 cm. dilated and 50% effaced, (I was a fingertip the week prior), and my cervix had moved from posterior position to anterior, ready to drop this baby out. The doctor stripped my membranes and I went mall walking (also known as shopping to those not pregnant) and I had lots of cramping and spotting the remainder of the day. I woke up at 4 a.m. to contractions 5 minutes apart and dreaming of the little one that would soon be in my arms. I woke back up furious at 7:30 and incredibly uncomfortable from the UTI that suddenly is back attacking my insides. I laid miserable most of the day, unsure of what was pregnancy and what was uti, but keeping hope that it meant I'd soon be delivering. There were a few other things that can indicate that labor is imminent taking place, but I'll spare you the details. We just finished dinner at Bob Evans and the kids are in Cville with my in-laws... and here I sit, barely having contractions to speak of.
Boo and hiss. That's about all I've got to offer.
I don't mind the waiting so much as I mind the constantly thinking I'm in labor only for it to be nothing. My body is doing things today that it's only done previously in labor, but regular contractions just aren't happening. I've been in too much pain to walk or bounce or anything else that may help because of the UTI (that seems to be moving yet again to my kidney). It would be as ideal as it could get for me to go into labor tonight, with the kids gone for the evening and everyone still off of work. But, well... I certainly won't be holding my breath.
Aren't I just overflowing with optimism tonight??!
I hope the next time I post it will be to introduce our little one.
Any guesses on boy or girl? Size? Arrival date?
Hope you all had a wonderful Christmas!!
And I hope to be updating SOON!