So what do I say?
I am kept.
I am heartbroken.
I am loved.
I am incredibly sad.
I am held close by the Maker of the Universe and the one who calls me His Beloved.
I am filled with that peace that surpasses understanding, and I know that it's a result of prayers being said and finally recognizing the need to cling to Jesus instead of shaking my fists at Him.
I am learning to love in a new way.
I am really and truly learning what it means to 'praise Him in the storm', as best as I can, anyway.
I am growing and changing.
I am hanging on.
And I'll leave you with this:
"Seek me with your whole being. I desire to be found by you, and I orchestrate the events of your life with that purpose in mind... When you encounter rough patches along your life-journey, trust that My Light is still shining upon you. My reasons for allowing these adversities may be shrouded in mystery, but My continual Presence with you is an absolute promise. Seek Me in good times; seek Me in hard times. You will find Me watching over you all the time." (Jesus Calling)
beautiful.
ReplyDeletestill praying for you.
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ReplyDeleteI don't know you, but I know of your family and am praying for you all. I just today found your blog, although I've read a bit that you've written on CaringBridge. Your faith... I don't have words for how much your words have touched me. It brings to mind one of my favorite statements made by Jesus (in Luke 17:19): Arise, go thy way: thy faith hath made thee whole. Somehow, someway, God will make a way. And I know He's holding you all so, so close. Keep clinging to those mighty, strong, tender merciful hands. And we'll all -- those you know and those you do not -- continue to raise your family in prayer. Thanks for sharing your experiences with us.
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