I'm sitting here indulging in my pregnancy-induced chicken nugget addiction, but today, not because I want nuggets... but because I had to have something to dip in my hot buffalo sauce. My mouth is on fire and it is glorious. I just wish I could find something else to finish off the pile of sauce remaining on my plate...
It's been a darn good morning. Had a fantastic walk with my dear friend Katie, let the kids play at the park, visited a fruit stand, and now, sitting and relaxing while my kiddos sleep.
Can you believe it's mid-July? Already? I wish I could become unaware of the calendar the next few months. We're living in the days that a year ago marked the beginning of JD's rapid decline, that mark the beginning of our heartache. "I will rise" by Chris Tomlin came on the radio on my way home just now, and today marks the first time I've listened to it without a flood of tears. But yesterday I saw a picture from when he was sick but still at school, and reality hit like a ton of bricks, and the tears wouldn't stop. Funny the way grief is, huh? All of that to say- I never would've dreamed last year at this time that this year at this time we'd be nearly 10 months without JD. I didn't know that my heart could hurt, ache in such a way. I was so aware of how much I loved my little brother, but never knew how tremendous the hole his absence would bring. Still, I miss him every single day. We talk about him so often, relive stories, joke, cry. Corban has his own memories, and for that I'm so grateful.
I dreamed of him last week, and it'd never been so good to hear a voice in all my life. I don't know what he said, what we talked about, but I remember waking up with a lightness in my heart, and then a deep sadness at the realization of it only being a dream, that being all I get for the remainder of my life on earth. Oh, I miss him...
On a lighter note, the end of this week marks 16 weeks of pregnancy. That's 4 months, people! Holy moly, I'm a soon-to-be mother of three. THREE! If we were finding out the gender this time, I could find out at my appointment on Wednesday. How crazy is that?! I think it's going to be really REALLY hard to wait to find out, but it'll be worth it. At least that's what I keep telling myself. :)
Okie doke, I better go finish folding some clothes (story of my life) and mop the kitchen floor while the munchkins are out.
Off to clean!
Wait- I'm back! I forgot something!
Do any of you use the envelope system for cash? What have been the pros/cons in doing so? Have you noticed an increase in money saved or sticking to your budget? I've been debating and think it'll be a positive thing for us... but I'm probably just lazy and undisciplined, if you want to know the truth.
And... has anyone potty trained a young toddler? Like an 18 month old little girl? I'm really considering it. Any advice? Cate is definitely interested, and it would sure be nice to just have one in diapers come January.
Lastly, my little boy is sitting on my lap and informed me that he likes the color blue.
That is all.