corners

I'd been writing a post in my brain since Saturday about how we've turned this corner...

 

...that there was starting to be an ease to things.

that everything wasn't seeming so hard.

 Neither a miracle nor a leash are wished for during every outing.

 

but today?

that feels like a bunch of lies.

Mostly because I was up too late working last night

and I've far over-extended myself.

And...

I have three kiddos who think naptime is for the birds today.

 

Those things make me a far too impatient, far too stressed, far too not-much-fun kind of Mama.

Oh, to have balance...

 

All of that to say-

A few days ago, I felt like we'd turned a corner.  

Jordan had a mountain bike race.

and I?

I had all three kiddos by myself AND without a stroller---

and had a blast.

They ran and jumped and practically swam  in every mud puddle they saw.

They were filthy, muddy, soaked to the bone, but oh, did they enjoy.

I don't know why I'm usually so uptight. Why is it so hard to just let my kids be kids?! 

It was such a sweet time...

I need to learn to say 'yes' more often. 

Even if it means a little mess, a little more effort, you know?

 Anyway...

Somedays, things DO seem easier.

Smoother.

Calmer.

And I treasure those days.

 I love being Mama to these kids.

These wild, energetic, curious kids.

Such sweet gifts they are...

treasures.

Oh Lord- Help me to have a heart of gratitude always...

And now, back to work I go. Playing catch up from being computer-less! Happy Longest Day of the Year! 

(and oh, does it seem long! ha!)